OMG WE’RE GETTING MARRIED!!!!!
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| — | In less than a year ohmygodddddddd!!!! |
If only you understand how I feel…
If only I could erase her from your mind…
If only I could be sure that she’s no longer in your heart…
If only you could love me more than you had loved her before…
…then I’ll be the happiest girl alive.
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It’s 20th October 2009 all over again..
It’s like German deja vu…
3rd time.
You really want to leave, don’t you?
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Why is it so hard for u to see that i’m here for you?
I thot I could b the friend you needed at time you are down.
But i didnt know that it would hurt this much to hear you tellin how you still hope for her. How u still want her in your life.
God, it hurts.
Ya Allah, if he’s really not my jodoh, please.. Please give me the strength to go through this. Please give me the strength to say goodbye, when he had find the calmness and ready to move on. Least i want to hear is he falling in love with someone new, that is still not me.
At time, i’ll try to be a good friend by staying at his side.
But i know it wont be long… I just cant bear how much it hurts and how much more it’s going to be…
P/s: thank you, Tumblr.. You’re the only place i can talk to… I know i’m going to spend my ime with u more after this..
What you told me last night.. was a huge surprise! But what’s more surprising is that I didn’t feel glad at all hearing she’s leaving you even though all this while I hope that you’ll be mine some day.
Guess I just not happy knowing you are not…
I am so jealous of her to know that she is the one and only girl who can make your life miserable…
If she really leaving you for good… I pray that you’ll find a good woman that can make you happier than ever.
